Today was one of those days.
We got up to smoky skies, but I could almost see my mountains.
After breakfast we headed in to Nelson for DH to get X-rays, bloodwork, pick up prescriptions, and have physio. I planned to do the grocery shopping since we were in town.
DH decided he is independent and was heading in to the hospital by himself for X-rays and lab work. He joked that would give me time to catch up on emails and make some phone calls.
Once he was out of sight, I grabbed my phone to check for messages and emails. I was very content to start reading a blog, when my phone chimed. I thought it might be my grandson letting me know if my next great grandchild is a boy or girl. They were expecting the news this morning.
Instead, the message was from my ex husbands daughter, letting me know her Dad had just passed away. Definitely not news I was ready to hear. Such mixed emotions (he is my ex husband for a reason). This day has been hard as was my night last night. I had woken several times remembering different occasions, events and memories and confused why I was dreaming of the past. This was his 4th round with Squamous Cell Carcinoma. Unfortunately the Cancer won as this form usually does. He did have some happy times since he was diagnosed in 2012 so we can be grateful for that. I had talked with him last Friday since he was on my mind. He told me he didn’t think he would make it through this round of cancer, so I was able to tell him I was sorry to hear that, that I had forgiven him for the wrongs in the past, and I was glad he had managed to find some peace with his family and a relationship that brought him happiness and contentment.
DH finished his tests and knew from my face that something was wrong. He held me so I could cry a bit and then we had to continue on with his appointments. DH did his physiotherapy and we came home.
The rest of my day has been spent making phone calls, sending messages and writing to friends.
Tonight will likely be more of the same. If you can today, take a moment to give someone close to you a hug, either for real or virtually. It just might make their day easier. 😢 Carol